Higher Balance Journey 7 Days Trial
The Journey
“I have searched for countless lifetimes for the answers to the questions within the depths of my soul. As time has passed my body weathered, my eyes graying with years and colors asunder, I still breathe, I still serve, quest for it’s in the making of my soul.”
The seasons of life, became the seasons of knowledge, hopes, promises and supposed truths were offered up to me all in time passing and disappointment. My bitterness and regrets left me distant to the calling that still always remains with me… Find me…
My body has become hunched with time, my breath raspy yet.. still I search.. my spectacles reflecting a modern world before me as I type one finger at a time…
Hallowed, whispered breath I speak what I see illuminated before me… “This is what you have been looking for your whole life”… my lip flinches cynically at the arrogant suggestion. Thoughts built upon a life time of deceitful promises…
Like a echo in a valley, my curiosity whispers … What if it is?
I know now what I did not then; my mind had walked through a doorway that has no hinges, knobs or frame. I entered, read, listened and applied. My teeth snapping as I howled.. Rubbish! This I have known all before. This is for children. I have no time left in me, my days fade away and I am no closer then the day I asked… What Am I, what must I do… for… you… Always the same answer my entire life… Find me…
In my dimly lit room, reflecting on the moment, I breathed in and released my dissatisfaction. Time seemed to slow as another part of me observed myself extending my hand forward to quench my thirst, my cup rocked forward and back setting free glistening reflections of the monitor in the liquids.
I stared feeling a moment was upon me… Centering my mind, my sight intensely upon the center ripples within the cup… A reflection collected itself, glistening. With an image of wings, a human sitting meditating in the center and a triangle with waves that invoked similarities of the very ripples in my cup. It was the logo from the site I had chosen to explore. Such a curiosity… it had centered within my spilled cup?
In my dimly lit room, the wrenching of my old chair sounded out as I reclined for a moment of thought as to what had just occurred. Was it something… more?
Why do I encourage such assured disappointment? Leaning forward once more, I entered the white blue illumination sphere emanating from my monitor.
My finger-extending out, bent and weathered as it reminded of the time I had left in the world. Bitterly it stabbed down upon the written word… Enter…
I whispered from my breath.. mockingly… Enter…
Glancing over to half empty cup… chosen by a love that had since long passed away… Nothing ventured… Nothing gained…
Brilliant light warmly grows across my body with a chirping elegance announcing the gift of a new day upon me. I breathe it in slowly, savoring and internalizing, bowing with only a single desire… I surrender my self to you… My soul releasing like that of an ocean drawing it self outward… There is nothing left of me… It is now with you, my beloved. Trust. My breath drawing in… The ocean of my life.. moves anew to my open arms… and fills my vessel… fully.
Raising myself, a line of golden light breaks way to my opening eyes, the morning first rays warming me.
Rubbing down my out stretched legs as they release themselves from my posture. Trees swaying gently left to right, sparkles of sunlight dancing in-between the leaves.
I can now feel their reflection glistening on my eyes.
Unexpectedly I chuckle to myself… I am reflecting at what had just occurred. I hear my own verbal whisper leaving my lips… Saying… Across the Universe.
My hands slowly unfurling no longer just a part of me, but part of something more… I no longer take notice of fading youth for all I can see now are the infinite details. They hold infinite beauty, galaxies within galaxies… slowly churning a dance and within a dance… my mind shudders speaking boldly the worlds… is this real? Is this dementia setting upon me?
I raise my head, looking outward and gasp at that which I behold. The tree’s have become transparent, illuminating particles flow within its veins. Ribbons stretch through the sky filled with stars and other worldly plans. The earth beneath me vibrates of another life I have not known?
My breath quickens, my mind shudders in disbelief… the illuminations fade into the world I have always known from the world I have always believed existed.
The familiar hum takes notice as my computer comes to life. I glance over to see a humming bird seemingly levitating, seeking out the promise of sweetness near my window.
Pushing up my spectacles reflecting a modern world before me as I type one finger at a time and the words revealing themselves to me… you have completed Core 1, Welcome to Core 2.
Time always seems slower when I am this place. Yet faster. I am aware that another part of me is extending my hand to quench my thirst; I recall the words written upon the cup… Nothing ventured… Nothing gained… My fingertips touching the outer rim of the cup… I am aware of another part of me… hearing the smooth sound of a cup being pushed to the edge of the table… nor was I watching the cup the moment I outstretch my fingers as it was at the edge of the table. I was only aware of my hands return and a single finger outstretched attached to the whole… Gently pressing down with renewed optimism… I softly speak the words… Enter…
I no longer hear the words; I have heard my entire life… Find me…
I am only filled with what I have also sought out…
